NEW YORK, NY.- On the cover of the book Enough: Scenes From Childhood, out this week from Faber & Faber, a young Stephen Hough sits at the piano, wearing a velvet jacket stitched with sequins and fake pearls. Hes dressed as Liberace.
Obviously, theres a gay subtext to that costume, Hough said in a recent video interview. Even then, I loved the outrageousness of it, even though I was quite shy. Theres a hint of subversion, something Hough maintains today with a twinkle permanently in his eye.
Hough, an English pianist and composer, has carried his lifelong love of creative writing into two previous books: Rough Ideas: Reflections on Music and More, and a novel, The Final Retreat. Where Hough described his novel as Sibelian in form, Enough, a collection of vignettes on childhood and Houghs troubled adolescence, is, in his words, more Debussyan: In the Préludes, the way he writes the piece titles at the end of the preludes, not at the beginning, with dots I love this idea of hinting at things, suggesting things.
Playful suggestion abounds in Houghs memoir, from the cover onward. (The first part of the title is a play on his regularly mispronounced surname, the second on Robert Schumanns Kinderszenen.) I do like shocking people, and I think thats part of what keeps me onstage, he said.
Critic Alexandra Coghlan said there is a lightness of touch in both Houghs playing and writing, allowing him to explore some big topics on the page his Catholic faith, his homosexuality, life as an artist without becoming po-faced or preachy. Among stories of chucky eggs (boiled hard, then mashed with seasoning) and his familys tenuous Beatles connection, Hough recalls the time, at age 4, when he inserted his third finger up a neighborhood boys rectum. Later, I would use it to trill long at the top of the keyboard in the Liszt First Concerto, he writes, nonchalantly.
Despite a scrapbook style, Enough retains a loose chronology, beginning with his familys first piano, a pretty bad one with yellowed keys and a rosewood frame, bought for 5 pounds (about $6) in an antique shop near his home, in an area between Liverpool and Manchester; and ending after Hough won the Naumburg International Piano Competition in 1983, at 21.
In lieu of descriptions of pianos hes loved Its like meeting someone on holiday and having a romance: You know that you cant see them again so best not to be too involved, he said Hough focuses on relationships with family and teachers, and an early musical life of hymns, nursery rhymes and sweet, teeth-rotting tunes from the world of light music.
Houghs writing is deeply sensual, because I had such a lack of it in my childhood, he said. The post-World War II period that saw colorful developments in art and music he turned to David Bowie and Marc Bolan in his teens coincided, in Houghs world at least, with horrible food: his grandmothers desiccated baking, or overboiled sprouts that looked like comatose slugs. That peculiarly British trait of blandness, Hough said, comes right through from the Victorian suspicion of pleasure.
Only in our literature have we allowed ourselves to enjoy words in a sensual way, he added. You think of the great poets right through the era, thats the only place where we have let go of the tight corsets and collars.
Before he had any idea of the concept, Hough knew that he was gay. Later, he learned what the word homosexual meant: I thought, How disgusting is that! And then two seconds later, I thought, Hey, wait a minute, thats me!
His adolescence was full with contradictions about sexuality, particularly as he converted to Catholicism. Later, his route to self-acceptance came through celibacy. A busy professional life after his Naumburg win helped distract him, though he was tormented by the constant possibility of guilt mainly through unconscious thoughts, such as sex dreams. This was my scrupulous theological line on overdrive, really, he said, but it was distressing, I have to say, many times in my life.
Houghs parents loving of him, but not especially of each other contained similar conflicting multitudes. His father, a member of the now-defunct Liberal Party, was anti-Europe but not aligned with the political rights position on the issue, was prudish and chivalrous around women yet also a serial adulterer. He was just outside of every box that you could imagine, Hough said, in the most interesting way.
His mother was irrepressible. Despite saying that she was solely attracted to men before her death, there were so many clues along the way, Hough said. Maybe she was part of a kind of sexual fluidity before it was known as that; maybe she enjoyed physical affection with women without feeling the need to say, Im a lesbian.
At 10, Hough enrolled at Chethams School of Music in Manchester. What followed was a dark period for him (he suffered a nervous breakdown) and the school (some of his teachers would later go to prison for child abuse), before he moved to the Royal Northern College of Music, where something sparked into life.
Three life-changing moments came in a short period: the inaugural BBC Young Musician of the Year competition; his first Catholic Mass; and his discovery of Edward Elgars setting of the John Henry Newman poem The Dream of Gerontius.
It turned me around in every way: musically, religiously, personally, Hough said of the Elgar. You can taste it really: that era of late Victorian camp, high-church life.
Hough had been interested in composing, but was forced to stop studying it as he focused on piano while at the Royal Northern College of Music. (John Corigliano encouraged him to restart in the 1990s.) In contrast to his many piano teachers including Miss Felicity Riley, an orange-lipped teacher from the next village, the avuncular Gordon Green and the fearsome Adele Marcus Hough didnt feel the need to return to composition lessons.
I think its a little bit like writing words, he said. I dont think Henry James had creative writing lessons, but he read and he knew the grammar, and so he set off on a journey with it. That method of writing music by absorbing musical grammar informs his compositions, which are always felicitous, viz., most recently his delicately allusive first string quartet, music critic Michael Church wrote in an email, referring to Les Six Recontres (2021), which evokes flavors of the French neo-Classical set Les Six.
Enough concludes in New York: Hough gained a scholarship to the Juilliard School, and fell in love with a city slowly coming to terms with what would become the AIDS crisis.
As the 1980s moved on, it was like a cloud in the sky on a sunny day, Hough said. Gradually it began to be darker and darker, and this extraordinary life of clubbing, fun and parties became very different in flavor.
But while the book ends with Houghs life in turmoil, theres one final suggestion: that better things are coming.
This article originally appeared in
The New York Times.