NEW YORK, NY.-
It feels good, actor Penn Badgley said on a recent Friday morning, in an echoing studio at the Mark Morris Dance Center in Brooklyn. Im clumsy as hell. But it feels good.
Badgley, 34, who played lonely boy Dan on the original Gossip Girl and now stars on the Netflix thriller You, hadnt visited a gym in two years. He hadnt taken a dance class in far longer.
But at a fashion shoot a month before, he had found himself moving in tandem with the photographer and missing dance acutely. So he reached out to André Zachery, his gyrotonics instructor and the artistic director of Renegade Performance Group, a contemporary dance company in Brooklyn. Zachery was willing to put him through his paces.
In the yawning dance studio, mirrors lined one wall. Ice-white tube lights glared overhead. Badgley had dressed for class in a villain-black T-shirt and shorts. A luxurious dad beard and a corona of mink-brown hair framed his face.
They began with a warmup: stretches, lunges, isolations of the neck, shoulders, chest and hips. Roy Ayers Everybody Loves the Sunshine set the groove; Badgley, his brooding face etched into a frown, inhaled and exhaled in time, rolling his spine down and up.
Zachery integrated the stretches into a simple routine, and Badgley lumbering and somewhat stiff, like a bear who hadnt fully shaken off hibernation danced his way through the initial eight count, then repeated the steps again.
All right, not bad, Zachery said encouragingly. You want to go a little faster?
Badgley paused to tie his hair back with a blue-and-white bandanna. He asked to take it slow again. As much as I love to move and I love to dance, its not a language that I speak regularly at all, he said. So even just getting into this feels great. But it also feels very clumsy.
Zachery reassured him, gently countering Badgleys perfectionism. Be imperfect with this, he said.
As Zachery prepared the next combination, the track switched to Donny Hathaways The Ghetto, and Badgleys stern face split into a smile. This is one of my kids favorite songs, Badgley said. He loves classic soul.
Last summer, Badgley and his wife, Domino Kirke, welcomed a son. (They also share custody of Kirkes son from an earlier relationship.) On You, Badgley plays Joe, the sociopath next door. Joe has also had a son with his wife, Love (Victoria Pedretti), who has a body count of her very own.
In the third season, which premiered Friday, Joe muses about his new life in a Bay Area suburb. Me, a boy and his mom, who is usually great, but occasionally murders people with her bare hands, Joe says. What could go wrong? A lot, it turns out.
Badgley has some experience playing characters with dark motives. The final episodes of Gossip Girl revealed that Dan, the Deuxmoi of his day, had surveilled his friends and lovers, uploading their secrets to the pre-Instagram internet.
Making the show was, as Badgley described it, an existential endurance test. As a 20-something, he struggled with the glitzy ethos of the series. Fans failure to differentiate between him and Dan nagged at him, too. I wouldnt recommend fame to anybody, he said. It just doesnt make anything better or help it make more sense. It doesnt help you as a person.
When Gossip Girl ended in 2012, he spent a half-decade shooting indie movies and touring with his band, MOTHXR. He wasnt sure he wanted to return to mainstream TV, and he had further doubts about Joe, a character who imprisons, tortures and kills women (and the occasional interfering man), all in the name of true love. Boy gets girl? Absolutely.
Still, he thought You had something to say about the tropes of romantic love and the queasy nexus of desire, power and abuse. Many viewers responded a lot more swoonily, and for a while, Badgley took time to razz fans asking to be kidnapped. (No thx, he replied.) Now he tries to focus on the work itself, which he likens to a dance, a torturous and ugly dance.
Back in the studio, Badgley was trying to dance more beautifully. He can become overwhelmed by his own thoughts, he said, so Zachery introduced a guided meditation, occupying Badgleys mind so that his body could move more freely.
As Robert Glaspers cover of Smells Like Teen Spirit played, he had Badgley imagine himself at the beach, his body buoyed by the waves. They also played a game of avant-garde Twister, in which Badgley had to keep either both hands and one foot on the floor or both feet and one hand.
Yo, man, Zachery said approvingly. Youre actually more in your body than you think.
Finally, at a suggestion from Badgley, he switched the music to Promises, a mellow album from Floating Points, Pharoah Sanders and the London Symphony Orchestra. The two men began to move across the floor together, limbs slowly cartwheeling as they improvised. Politely, Badgley asked to turn the music up.
Now were dancing, he said, back arched, head tipped back, arms like wings. It feels so good.
This article originally appeared in The New York Times