PARIS.- Fatima Daas was used to not reading about people like her. Her debut novel was a chance to remedy this.
Based on her own life, The Last One follows a young Muslim lesbian in a tough Paris suburb who struggles to reconcile her conflicting identities.
I grew up with the idea, whether in films or in books, that I did not exist, Daas, 26, said in a recent phone interview. I didnt exist as a young lesbian, Muslim woman, with an immigrant background. So the question I have asked myself a lot is How do we shape ourselves when we have absolutely no representation?
Representation and identity are fraught topics now in France, a country that prides itself on a universalist tradition that unites all citizens under a single French identity, regardless of their ethnicity or faith. Identity politics are often seen as a threat to social cohesion.
So Daas book was an unlikely hit when it came out here last year. Critics praised the novels powerful lyricism and hailed the author for breaking taboos around gender, sexuality and religion. The Last One won best debut novel in the 2020 Les Inrockuptibles Literary Prize, organized by the French cultural magazine, and has since been translated into eight languages. It will be released Tuesday in the United States by Other Press.
Fatima Daas is a pseudonym, and it is also the name of the novels main character. The author said her book was autofiction, a form of fictionalized autobiography, but how much is true and how much is made up is left for the reader to guess.
Daas declined to give her real name, partly because she didnt want to involve her family, she said. But she added that using a pseudonym was in line with her playful exploration of multiple identities: It was about creating and embodying a character, of reinventing myself.
Each chapter of the novel begins My name is Fatima and is followed by an affirmation like I am French, I am Algerian, Im named after a symbolic figure in Islam.
The narrative is punctuated by flashbacks to the main characters childhood and adolescence. The youngest of three sisters in a Muslim family from Algeria, and the only one born in France, Fatima struggles to fit in at school and has romantic relationships with women, even though she considers homosexuality a sin. She battles feelings of shame but refuses to give up any part of herself.
Daas said her novel was more than an affirmation of identity; it was a way of saying that its possible, I can be this if I want to. And if I want to say that I am a lesbian and a Muslim, I have the right, the capacity, the freedom to do so.
Salima Amari, a sociologist at the Centre for Political and Sociological Research in Paris and author of the book Lesbians of Immigration, said the novel was powerful because it exposed contradictions that many have struggled with.
A woman who defines herself clearly as lesbian and a Muslim, who writes, and therefore who has a voice, exists, Amari said. This brings a very rare voice to the French landscape.
Daas said she began writing in high school, where she attended workshops by Tanguy Viel, a writer of mystery and detective novels. It took her a while to find other writers she liked, she added, but something clicked when she discovered Annie Ernaux and Marguerite Duras, two French authors whose work Daas quotes throughout The Last One.
She wrote the novel in 18 months, as part of a masters degree in creative writing at Paris 8 University. There, she met novelist and filmmaker Virginie Despentes, who had come to talk about her career as part of the course. When Daas told Despentes about the book she was working on, Despentes spurred her on, Daas recalled.
She said a lot of people would see themselves in what I was talking about, Daas added. So it was very important that I keep writing.
Perhaps the most significant taboo that Daas addresses in the novel is the issue of internalized homophobia. Throughout, its main character describes herself as a sinner and feels ashamed.
Two weeks after the books publication, in September 2020, Daas appeared as a guest on public radio station France Inter. When asked if, like her character, she believed that being a lesbian made her a sinner, Daas said yes.
I am searching for complexity, she added.
A wave of criticism followed on social media, in which LGBT people accused Daas of encouraging homophobia.
In the interview, Daas said she wanted to explain her internal conflicts, but she was not interested in acting as the spokeswoman for any group. The question by the France Inter interviewer was a way to move the conversation away from my work and instead talk about the subject of Islam.
There has been this obsession with Islam and homosexuality, because they are hot topics, she added.
Faïza Guène, a writer who shot to fame in France at 19 with her first novel, Kiffe kiffe demain (More of the Same Tomorrow), said in an interview that a lot of people would have preferred it if Fatima Daas had written a book about giving up Islam because she is a lesbian.
If you want to be French today, a fully French citizen, you have to give up one of the fragments of your identity, she said. But we are full of paradoxes.
While The Last One doesnt offer solutions to the problem of conflicting identities, Daas said she hoped readers from different backgrounds would relate to the experience of struggling to find ones place in society.
Growing up like that wasnt easy, she said.
Although writing had helped her say things she never thought she would say, she added, publishing a hit novel had not eased her feelings of shame.
I dont think literature can save people, but it can be liberating, she said. Thats what this book has given me.
This article originally appeared in
The New York Times.